21 April 2008 @ 01:27 am
I can has no more phobias, please?  
I just went downstairs to get something to eat and on my way out of the kitchen I saw a thick spider near the stairs. I got a glass and a saucer to catch it, but I just couldn't get near enough. Because everytime I moved closer I could see it better, the legs, OMG, and I freaked. I got frustrated 'cause I'm just not able to catch the damn thing, and started crying, hyperventilating a bit and screamed every time I stepped near it.
Dammit, why is no one here? Usually I just go wake someone up. And if it's in the middle of the night - yeah, I'm mean like that. But hey, they can get back to sleep after that, but if the spider's not caught I can't sleep at all.
So the spider then moved under the blanket that's lying next to the stairs. I freaked some more, because I missed my chance, and kinda hoped for the neighbor to hear me and come over to ask what's going on. You know, I could have just stomped on the blanket, problem solved. But as afraid as I am of those creatures I can't kill them. Shit. So I decided to just stay in the kitchen and wait for the spider to come out (there was a chance I'd be able to catch it - I once did that with a spider in the tub...took me half an hour to muster the courage). But that's when something at the bottom corner of the dishwasher caught my eye. GODDAMMIT, TWO IN ONE NIGHT, ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME? Yes, another spider, this one of the thin, longlegged kind. Guess what I did:

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I'm so glad that tomorrow mom's hubby is coming home. I should text him now in case I'm asleep (I don't think I'll be able to sleep, am still shaking, but you never know) when he comes home. I don't know if/when he has to go to work tomorrow. Would suck if I missed him.
Fuck, I can't go downstairs to get tea or food (which isn't all that tragic since I haven't eaten the food I got 'cause I'm not hungry anymore, and I got get water from the bathroom)! And if I really decide to tape the gap shut (provided I find the tape) I can't leave my room at all or I'll have to do it again. FUCK FUCK FUCK!

Oh wow, that turned out longer than expected.
 
 
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[identity profile] alias_chick.livejournal.com on April 21st, 2008 05:54 am (UTC)
Oh wow!! I totally know what you mean!! Insects in general I like.. but from a distance.. I hate to kill them, but I think most of the time they surprise me and their motion is so unpredictable that it freaks me out... especially if they move fast because I know rationally they would not move towards me.. but that part of my brain gets quashed and fight of flight completely takes over!
fueschgast[personal profile] fueschgast on April 21st, 2008 02:33 pm (UTC)
I wonder what it is that turns that rational thinking off or at least makes that thinking a lonely little star in the endless space of AHHHH, OMG, OMG!. I know they won't attack me, we only have harmless spiders here, but that thought is just there doing nothing to help me. *sigh* There should be a way to get rid of phobias other than confronting them!
[identity profile] alias_chick.livejournal.com on April 23rd, 2008 07:24 pm (UTC)
Lol.. the weird thing is, I've held tarantulas and I think spiders are gorgeous, but if I see one on the floor it scares me... *shakes head.. I know.. I'm weird..
[identity profile] sparklingrocks.livejournal.com on April 21st, 2008 02:21 pm (UTC)
Did all of the above - that's at least what I'd do.
I've got this huge ass spider in my bed room, just saw it. Awesome.
fueschgast[personal profile] fueschgast on April 21st, 2008 02:49 pm (UTC)
Yeah, I did all of those things. And then found some nice adhesive tape, with that I closed the gap under the door. After that I could sleep. *relieved sigh*

OMG, in your bedroom, that's much worse the the kitchen, ew. Good luck with that.